Everything you do in your life is done for a reason. There is a reason for everything that you do. You have a purpose. God has so many things going on, that you may start to think that you are doing things that are pointless and in vain. These things are not pointless. The things that you do each day prepare you for your future. You may not believe it, but they do. As long as you are not moving backwards and trying to destroy the life that God gave to you, then you are doing everything that is needed to move you forward toward your purpose in life. So take it easy on yourself. Do not rush your life. You will get there one day. It may seem impossible, but everything is possible with hard work and God. God wants you to have everything you want to have in your life. You have to want life in order to see all things come to light. You can't be in a self destructing and negative mindset and expect for all your dreams to come true. If you are doing the right things for the right reasons,...