Last night I prayed extra hard. I was in a very bad space but I chose to stay still and not act on my feelings. Before I'd allow my feelings lie to me and tell me that I needed to go out in the club or out with "so called friends" and drink my problems away or do some type of drugs to try and numb out every emotion. I don't do that these days because I'm afraid of the consequences and of losing everything that I have been working so hard for. I am valuable to myself. I love ME so much now that I won't let any circumstances, people or anything else block me from everything I myself and God has in store for me. See I am in control of my actions. I choose to be whether or not I want to be for or against myself. I have been against my own self most of my life and I will never neglect myself again. Keep your head up folks, you can change everything in your life if you need to and survive just like I'm doing and have done. It takes hella work but you can do it. -Allen J.
Sometimes in life we get the things that are not best. Those things are meant for us to not be indulging in unless they are the initial part of what makes us not have them later on. We aren't supposed to be indulging in those things after the situations that make us understand, after being burned within the way we have to prevent the entire fire from engulfing our lives , shows us that those things aren't to be a part of what it takes to make us satisfied with what we are to have. We understand that those things aren't for us to have. Baring guilt comes from re-entering the situations that taught us not to have specific things with the delusion that we can indulge or choose once again those things, or that thing that isn't for us to have. We are left with this fear that the consequences that we once suffered would somehow return. That fear is GUILT! We already understand that the same decision to choose or indulge in whatever gave unsatisfying results prior will only b...
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